What a month or two !!!

So just a little over the 2 months since been diagnosed the 2nd time round and after long debating with myself whether or not I was starting chemo or going hell for leather with my alternative treatment plan!!  A wise man said to me Grace you need to be throwing everything at it possible !! I need to give myself the best chance at kicking its ass again as this will be the last time too mutha fucker!!!

I do apologize in advance again for the use of the odd curse, those of you that know me personally know they do slip out now and again from time to time lol !! I am getting better tho, I nearly died when I heard my 2 yr old Hannah cursing in the bath telling the sponge to feck off lol . So a swear jar needs to be put into my gaf for both me and doyler ha.  So sugar and shoot are good words at the moment. 😂😂😂😂

 All I kept thinking was where do I bloody start?  What are we gonna do not more fucking chemo again cos the 1st time around was a fucker !!!  no control over your body and it is the fear of the unknown too,  as you do not know what to expect or how your body will react to chemo either.  This is bigger than me and I am here to prove that combined treatments work and that the hospital need to stand up and recognise the use of alternative treatments diet supplements everything is all working in sync together to combat this dreaded disease that is cancer. I mean the toxicity in your body already by having cancer then adding more toxins in with chemo and radium into the mix, then ye you are giving yourself a life sentence right there lie back and accept the treatment will work but the chance of survival under the 5 year rate !! I like to defy the odds feck that ill be here for a very long time thank you very much !! 

When you are dealt the card of a stage 4 diagnosis it is hard to get your head around it all and then have the privacy for you and your family to come to terms with the low blow the docs threw at me on that day and still continue to try throw at me.  So apologise I still have not been in contact with plenty of people to this day because I feel I still need to detach from my phone emails, even tv is a distraction at present. It’s actually been nice only checking in now and again.  More important things to be getting on with like research baby !! 

So I had to go right back to the start all over again and back to very basics !! This is what I studied 4 years for I can knock the shit out of this !!!! Oh yes I can I have my little shrinkage dance that is done naked on getting out the shower with the theme to shake it off in my head by Taylor Swift 😂😂😂!!!  

So with multiple visits to hospital for bloods / scans/chemo radium and various appointments with my herbalist biochemist and acupuncture. As well as the mobile phone ringing the whole time, Hannah has been sick 3 times over the last six weeks with Rosieola , 2 colds and chest infection Lucky mammy didn’t catch any of it so good my immune system I have it somewhat in check with my alternative combos 🙂  The universe knows sure how to throw a spanner in the works when you are of course but I am taking it in my stride and getting on with it all the warrior that I am. 😆

It has been 2 months full of stress and it’s still not over yet!! I no longer can hack any sort of stress at all,  due to my adrenal glands been fooked basically . ( I’ll touch on adrenal glands after cancer in another post)   It is hard to stay positive and when yr doctors tell you don’t do this and that or take this or that. I’m up against it but no better woman to show them how it’s done. We couldn’t delay my chemo due to the fact my pain was setting in again and my tumour was pressing on my spine causing compression to my nerves I wasn’t risking having more permanent damage or not been able to walk. I’m having weekly sessions of acupuncture to help side effects from chemotherapy and raise my energy levels.  I also should mention that since starting the thc /cbd combo I had not needed any pain relief from doc or hospital 😀😀😀😀😀  sweet !!!  Up until last week as where one of my tumours got a little inflamed or aggravated as I was told from all my walking around Lourdes in Sept,  which was a magical experience but no miracle for me over there someone else needed it more. 😀 I will do separate blog on Lourdes trip as I feel it deserves its own blog post for that. This is just updating people where I am at to date. 

My liver function is good and my inflammation markers are coming down so all steps in the right direction for me.  Keeping the faith , prayers positivity and well wishes going folks. We are doing something right just need to add few other things into the mix to combat the spinal compression again on left side now  but will be no bother I am in the hospital all week here getting on top of it all.  So I will be back on track after next week again 🙂  I have all my supplements and that with me in here so I’m good to go 🙂  

Just a MASSIVE BIG THANK YOU to everyone from Myself , family and friends we are all so grateful for the help and support over the last few weeks and still continuous support shown by the whole community, not just bray but from all over from Australia, New Zealand,  America England and Italy it’s been overwhelming and a bloody rollarcoaster of emotions at the best of time. I can’t express how thankful I am but I will when this is all put behind me next year 😀  big plans for next year !!! 

Guys seriously the messages do have me in tears but it is all part of the grieving process !!! 

So far where money has been allocated  to various things from  the thc oil, tinctures, suppositories,  due to the nature of my breast cancer and the hormonal activity involved when dealing with estrogen sensitive breast cancer!!   I need suppositories made from the thc oil these are used for 3 weeks and don’t give the high effect either. Firstly I need to target the liver directly as I have several tumours on my liver one been over 3cm. The cbd/thc oil in tincture form this targets the cancer in my bones as it deals with the acidity in the body. Frequent visits and herbal supplies from Sean Boylan herbalist in Dunboyne in  co .Meath.  I’m having regular acupuncture sessions along with having had reverse osmosis water installed in the house. All plastic wear has been discontinued on Isle 3 😂😂😂 just kidding all forms of plastic wear has been changed to glass wear not one scrap of my food can be in plastic storage containers due to the fact that is wreaks havoc on your hormones and mimics estrogen in your body. All cleaning products have been swapped and my cleaners consists of water essential oils mixed. I am applying topical oil frankincense to my tumour areas and the roof of my mouth daily. I am taking a number supplements to build my immune system up along with fresh juices daily of beetroot /  supergreens and Wheatgrass  my das kitchen has literally turned into a garden with Wheatgrass growing everywhere 😀I’ve upgraded my juicer and following a strict diet too. NO SUGAR IT FEEDS CANCER !!!!! 

This all wouldn’t be possible to get where I am so far without everyone’s help and generosity I really truly am ever so gratefull for all the support and I will keep you all updated as to what next as we are still researching the best clinic worldwide to travel to for further treatment as too much information to take in my brain is in over drive all the time because no stone is left been unturned.  I have narrowed my clinics abroad down to 5 so I have sent emails off to these as when i finished the chemo I need to get the fuck out of this country to get the residual chemotherapy out of my body before I am left like a 90 year old woman with rheumatoid arthritis something they fail to inform you off when you sign up to chemo 1st time around . So that in itself will cost just a little over 10 tousand euro for 2 weeks stay and intensive treatments.

 In the mean time I will keep plucking away with everything I am doing,  As I have to keep my liver pathways clear and excreting as much shite out of me as possible (literally lol)  I have issues with my phase 2 detox pathways in my liver so my chemo got circulated in my body the 1st time around and came back more fucking aggressive the bastard talk about no consideration lol !!! 

Stay on top of your own health folks and make sure you have all the facts you need to help you on your way xx Hopefully they let me home tomorrow cos I miss my own bed and snuggles with Hannah and my man. 

All has to be done and part of the journey xxx

RESEARCH RESEARCH !!! MAKE INFORMED DECISIONS ABOUT YOUR HEALTH FOLKS 😀😀😀 I am always here for anyone going through a similar situation and wants to chat it’s nice to have someone there who has been through it as well. Xxx 

NAMASTE xxx 

Grace